Okay … It’s time for one of those depressive blogs again. OH I HATE to be negative and I am seldom that way. I’d like to say that I often try to be positive, and I try to find good aspects in things that seem to happen around me (that arn’t that thrilling). HOWEVER, now I’m kinda beat. I think I have to give up … and it’s really sad. Well, not sad if you compare it to world war, financial crisis and death perhaps … but it’s a personal tragedy, well that’s harsh, but almost anyway.
I’ve been working with an album for 4,5 years now. No, it’s been longer than that, but the actual measured time is 4,5 years (aprox). The damn thing is finished, the cover is sooooo close to finshed, but still, STILL it’s stuck. It doesn’t matter what I say or do. Believe me, I have tried my best.
I have argued, discussed, screamed, cried, gone insane, backed off, tried different methods, been understanding, been rude. I have tried to negotiate, to listen, I have talked, I’ve been eager, worked hard, I have given up, I’ve thrown myself back in again, I’ve complained, I’ve been depressed and sad. I have wished, hoped, longed, tried to buy it off, find solutions, resolve all issues … I have reeeeeeeeally tried to comprehend … but it doesn’t matter.
Maybe I need to start anew, new songs. But I’ve worked my *** off with this album and it is THERE. It exists, but right now it seems like no one will hear it.
The worst thing is that I can’t do anything about it…